My computer sticker says
BE YOU TIFUL
I want to be.
What does that mean,
in this machine?
in the library,
laid out in my notebook –
scratched down, cobbled together,
the only way I can do it.
All the talking heads,
wherever they can be found,
Have the answer.
and send funds.
But in making,
you craft yourself.
You dig your hand into that beautiful yarn basket.
And, you pull up a bright red Wensleydale.
You spin it.
Then, you knit it into your deep green sweater sleeve.
You write about the annoying mosquito,
buzzing around your head.
The one you can’t catch for anything.
The one that gets right next to your ear,
just as you are dozing off, and sends you
waving crazy around the room.
The self-appointed gatekeepers are confident that they know the destination. They are focused on it.
The makers want us to gain solace from accepting that we don’t.
To notice and grapple with what comes now, and now, and now.
I understand something about both opposing mindsets. I think they exist in all of us.
I’m choosing the makers now, and now, and now.
And so, I must make with the very things I want to ignore, the very things I wish were not there: the broken crayons, twigs, the aching knees, the wet newsprint, scraps of brown yarn. All of it.